Hello - And a Dose of Reality

8/12/2013


Hey! It's me, I'm finally back on a more permanent* basis. I've missed blogging, but am so thankful that I had time to recover and bond with little Phoenix, as he won't be this little for much longer. I'm already shocked that he's almost a month old!

Being a mom of two is some kind of crazy wonderful. I just can't imagine life without Phoenix, even though he's only been here for a few weeks. He's growing fast, and loves to eat, sleep and grunt like a goat. This last activity is the cause of many sleepless nights..so we've been rotating him in and out of the living room, hallway...really wherever there is a little nook, so mama can get a couple of hours of decent rest at night. This brings me to one of the hardest things about mommyhood. Exhaustion. Before I was a mom I tossed around that word rather freely. I mean I remember feeling exhausted while traveling long distances or staying up all night writing that paper in college. But nothing compares to the sleep deprivation that parenthood brings. There's no way to prepare for it or train for it. You just do it. And you survive. I did with Mila and I will with Phoenix too. I remind myself of this at 1am, 3am, 4am...and I snuggle his cute little body. Below is a photo snapped around 5am on some random morning. (Sorry for the poor photo quality). Tired mama!

{Cellulitis...yuck!}

The other day I was feeling particularly bluesy. I felt alone and isolated and exhausted. Nursing around the clock, entertaining Mila, feeding Mila, consoling a screaming newborn and then getting one and a half hours of sleep makes one moody. Also I apparently contracted this crazy thing called cellulitis...I had no clue what it was either (here's some info). Anyway, I'm much better and all Phoenix cares about is being able to nurse (which was a little touch and go at one point). At any rate I stumbled upon this post by Joanna and realized two things. One...no mama is ever alone. There is always an exhausted mommy (millions) up with you in the darkest hours of night, nursing, rocking, comforting a little baby back to sleep. And two: babies be babies. The time that they are this little is fleeting. Perspective is always a good thing. And on that note, coffee is also a good thing. ;) 


*Posts may be a little random as I juggle daily life! Thanks for understanding! :)

30 comments:

Stephanie @ henry happened said...

that last picture is just beautiful! and you're right, time will fly by and you'll remember all these sleepless nights as happy times. enjoy the little one :)

Courtney Erin said...

I cannot even imagine the level of exhaustion - seriously, it must be crazy. I'm glad you're feeling better and pulling through and enjoying all the amazing little moments.

Courtney ~ http://sartorialsidelines.com

Elizabeth @ The Little Black Door said...

Such beautiful photos. And I'm glad you are feeling better. Hang in there mamma and always know you aren't alone!

Leslie said...

Be gentle with yourself. My mom has cellulitis, and it is not fun, so I can only imagine how you are coping with that and two little ones. You are absolutely amazing and have such a great perspective.

Cassie @ Primitive & Proper said...

he's beautiful, as are you! how blessed you are!!!
and yes, it is tough..... mine were 17 months apart and i remember not too much from my daughter's infancy as life was hard and crazy. but all worth it!

Meg {henninglove} said...

oh no alexa hope the cellulitis clears up fast! you are doing a wonderful job at being a mom of two don't ever doubt yourself! thinking of you often

17 Perth said...

I can only imagine the level of exhaustion! And I love your perspective! You look absolutely beautiful in that photo! Hope the cellulitis clears up fast!

Jaime @ La vie...J'aime said...

Hang in there! phoenix is so cute

birdie to be said...

Oh so precious!!!

Viviana Norden said...

I can't imagine how tired you must be! But your little baby munchkin is just adorable!
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Christine D. | The Plumed Nest said...

oh you poor thing 1.5 hours is very little sleep!! wish i could pop over and let you take a nap! but it's so true this time will be gone in a blink of an eye and you will probably never look back and remember how truly exhausted you really were/are. you will say things like, remember how tiny his toes were? the brain is a magical thing :)

Couture Carrie said...

Beautiful pics.
Love the last one!

xoxox,
CC

Nicole Michelle Centers said...

Aw tiny little hands- So precious!

Congrats again!

Enjoy all that coffee ;)

Nicole
www.eleganceandclutter.com

ashley nicole catherine said...

this is such a sweet post! i'm glad you're doing and feeling better! can't wait to see more baby pics :)

Laura {happily ever} Parker said...

Glad to hear you're feeling better. I am so awful when I don't get enough sleep so this is something that makes me worried!! But I suppose you're right and I will survive - just may need to invest in a Keurig!

Megan said...

Phoenix is too cute! Enjoy every minute snuggling :) You are right, surviving on little sleep is tough stuff but if you did it once you can do it again ;) Good work Momma!

xx
Megan
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Alison Dulaney said...

Such a beautiful family!

Laura said...

Beautiful photos Alexa xo

Rowena @ rolala loves said...

Welcome back Alexa! You and your little ones look beautiful! Bonding with your newborn is def. a very special time.

Rowena @ rolala loves

Alex said...

You're as beautiful as ever, and take your time with random posts! Your life is way more busy and exhausting than mine ever will be, so it's totally understandable. So glad you're back + that everyone is doing well :)

Allyson [Mimosas in the Morning] said...

Miss you at work Alexa! I've always heard that juggling things with two children is tough at firs, but such a joy. I have no doubt that you are doing a fantastic job with those two little cuties! Can't wait to see more! xoxox

Emily Smith said...

So sorry to read about the cellulitis - I'm glad it's clearing up. I've heard a few people get that from water retention. Your two little ones are adorable and surely worth the exhaustion...but I know what you mean!! I never knew sleep deprivation until my baby came...and my husband went on a Navy deployment. I was a Mama zombie...lol. I'm sure you are doing wonderfully with both your kiddos! Hopefully you find some more rest soon xo

Amira said...

There truly is NO preparation for the exhaustion that a newborn brings. At least as a second time mama you KNOW that it will pass :-) My daughter is only 6 months old, but I remember that first month feeling like my life was over and I would never, ever feel like myself.

Mandy Crandell said...

Gorgeous photos. Glad you're feeling better.

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Lindsay @ Delighted Momma said...

Awe I loved this post. You are doing an incredible job, just remember that! And cellulitis...Ian got that last year after getting a gnarly cut on his leg while playing football. It was so painful for him! Glad to hear you are doing better. Glad you're back xoxo

Gaby [The Vault Files] said...

I hear ya Alexa, the job of being a mom is definitely one that no one can teach you. I was amazed at what my mind and body were capable of doing with all the sleep deprivation, and you just keep going and going. It's incredible what love makes us do right? I have no idea how many times I had the strength to stay awake and do ordinary things (matthew didn't sleep the first 3 months, no kidding). Cherish those moments, because those moments are the ones that remind us of how big our hearts are ;)

Johanna said...

Glad to see you back and posting. It's tough but having perspective like you said is so spot on. It will be fleeting and quick and it's ok to have a bad day or several. I love the precious pics.

Gloria said...

Thank you for this honest view of what motherhood is really like those first few weeks/months!

christine, just bella said...

I hear ya! I can only imagine the adjustment to having two, I'm sorta freaked about when that day might finally come! It's amazing what we can do on so little sleep and how you do survive. And how the time seems so fleeting when you look back on it (NOT when you're in it).

Hang in there mama, Phoenix is adorable and he's lucky to have such a wonderful, beautiful mama!

little t said...

So cute! Congratulations! (and welcome back) xo